22:48 IST
The Toy Room, Inderpuri
New Delhi, India
I realised some things today. A job and an ambition rarely go hand-in-hand. I cannot let a job get in the way of my ambition. Similarly, I cannot let my ambition get in the way of a job I need to do to earn money. If my ambition could give me the monetary pleasures required to sustain the self, life would be laa-dee-daa. But that isn't the case. My ambition is an elusive thing. It exists, I'm sure it exists. It is hovering about, floating somewhere, sans direction. I will discover it some day. It might be the day I dissipate into nature. How free I would feel! But while that journey continues, there must be a source of the tangible income. The income can be gotten through a job. A job is required.
I must maintain a record of the internal and external realities. So that when I am on my deathbed, I can read and smile at the self's strugglesome journey to find the floating feather.
The Toy Room, Inderpuri
New Delhi, India
I realised some things today. A job and an ambition rarely go hand-in-hand. I cannot let a job get in the way of my ambition. Similarly, I cannot let my ambition get in the way of a job I need to do to earn money. If my ambition could give me the monetary pleasures required to sustain the self, life would be laa-dee-daa. But that isn't the case. My ambition is an elusive thing. It exists, I'm sure it exists. It is hovering about, floating somewhere, sans direction. I will discover it some day. It might be the day I dissipate into nature. How free I would feel! But while that journey continues, there must be a source of the tangible income. The income can be gotten through a job. A job is required.
I must maintain a record of the internal and external realities. So that when I am on my deathbed, I can read and smile at the self's strugglesome journey to find the floating feather.
